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2005.03.25
see-saw swingin' blah blah blah...no one reads this so why do i bother? *scroll down to the blue to skip my speeches on life and why i hate peopleand read my life update* i really hope egg dyes are non-toxic because i was definately biting my nails, now multi-colored from the egg dye. yes, we still dye easter eggs. though it doesn't instill as much thrill as it did 5 years ago, it is still an awesome tradition i will probably still be doing in college. yep, once a freak, always a freak, for the rest of my life. speaking of life, i was thinking that, i really don't want to be old. i don't want to be all wrinkley and helpless. i'd rather die young and fufilled. what's the point in life anyways? learn stuff, get a job, get married, have some kids, retire, spoil some grandchildren and attend all your friends's funerals, depending on who dies first. when you look at the big picture, life sucks. but of course, on the small scale, there's happiness, love, fun, excitement. once again, that's only the good half. on the other hand, you've got death, hatred, killing, disgust, anguish. once again, life sucks. ok, someone randomly im-ed me. they probably got my sn from my xanga. i should definately take that off, because random im's are friggin' annoying. especially this person. first, it was a friendly random conversation: "hey i like that song too" (a fall out boy song in my away message) "oh yea it's great"..."do you have the acoustic version?" "nope" "you are sick...you call yourself a fan?" then, my favorite: "you're fat...and ugly" and then they just kept coming! i was playing along for quite awhile, then i was just like, this is frickin ridiculous, why am i sinking to thier level of immaturity? honestly, if i'm "fat", they must be a 2 foot tall midget, because i don't even weigh 100 pounds! whatever. people can be so...naive. *here i go on a big schpeel about people* i hate people. most people. there are only a few people that i can actually stand. even some of the people i'm friends with i couldn't hang out with. i think i just have a habit of attracting people i don't like but can never get enough of me. for example, alyssa. the most annoying person i have known to date. i'm constantly trying to avoid her as much as possible, and i do say things that would be degrading to most, but still, she sticks to me like frucking crazy glue. as for guys, what in the hell makes me so attractive to all the wrong guys? i don't like just messing around once or twice, i'm not promiscious, i don't like a lot of sexual/flirty attention from a lot of guys. one is enough. i'd rather have friends, thankyouverymuch. now for the update on my life...this will be quick...I GOT CONVERSE! yea!! they're black with purple inside and totally awesome! and i got 2 capris...some weird ones and some dickies...and a rainbow brite shirt! and it's great. i saw todd's friend in blockbuster, then his cell phone rang, and it was todd. it was quite ironic. he better call me sometime...and that was my friday. oh, and my driving progress: ok, i'm getting better, but i suck at parking. out of the 3 times i parked today, 1st time: i parked really crooked, 2nd: in the middle of 2 spaces, and 3rd: that was perfect. i am so great. *sigh*...i think i'll go to bed or something. nothing else to do, nor to say. yey spring break...whatever. i'm bored as hell and it's only friday. this is the one time i wish i had more friends here. or, more time in illinois. much...nothing <3 ::.mélawen.:: |
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